Music :)

I think i have finally decided to devote my life to music, its what i am born to do. I was writing yet another song yesterday and was thinking, i like doing this, im kind of good at it, so why not make it a career. Except im not that confident, i mean i am, i could easily sing infront of thousands of people and it wouldnt bother me, but im not that confident in getting myself sorted.

Im a lazy person, and if theres a lot of work involved i simply wont do it. Ive grown up thinking it was okay, just not bother with things because someone will always do it for me, I suppose.

But i really want this, i want to become famous and for people to know my name, i know that is completely self-centered and ridiculous, but i cant help it.

Im an ok-ish singer, but i just dont think i have what it takes to make it big, have been considering going on x-factor and all that nonsense, but im just not sure. I cant play an instrument, but still i can make music and i can make lyrics which sound decent, so whats stopping me from doing what i want? I suppose its always been a dream, never the reality. Ive spent my whole life on stage so why cant i spend the  rest of my life doing what i want?

Question still stands, and i will pondor over it for some time :/