Music :)

I think i have finally decided to devote my life to music, its what i am born to do. I was writing yet another song yesterday and was thinking, i like doing this, im kind of good at it, so why not make it a career. Except im not that confident, i mean i am, i could easily sing infront of thousands of people and it wouldnt bother me, but im not that confident in getting myself sorted.

Im a lazy person, and if theres a lot of work involved i simply wont do it. Ive grown up thinking it was okay, just not bother with things because someone will always do it for me, I suppose.

But i really want this, i want to become famous and for people to know my name, i know that is completely self-centered and ridiculous, but i cant help it.

Im an ok-ish singer, but i just dont think i have what it takes to make it big, have been considering going on x-factor and all that nonsense, but im just not sure. I cant play an instrument, but still i can make music and i can make lyrics which sound decent, so whats stopping me from doing what i want? I suppose its always been a dream, never the reality. Ive spent my whole life on stage so why cant i spend the  rest of my life doing what i want?

Question still stands, and i will pondor over it for some time :/

gratitude for the people i love.

So i sat there in pcse thinking 'oo, ill write a blog tonight' and then asked the best friends what to write about, and they said i should talk about them, so here it is a blog for the besties :))

KATE HAMPSHIRE:
One of THE bestiest friends in the world, she has always been therefore me, always! everybit of my highschool years. Shes been there. Kate is the most hilarious person i know, im not joking everyday i always laugh at her! she doesnt even realise shes doing it, thats just kate. She is aboslutly stunning, even though she doesnt realise it! I have too many memouries with this girl there is no point writing this all down. I hope this girl stays with me untill im grey and wrinkly and even then she will be getting me into trouble and being terribly mischevious, but its worth it :)) Love you xxxxxx

SHANSHAN BUTTERWORTH:
Shannon is a best friend, always has been always will be. Right from when she came back to mine and had TWO bowls of my stepmums amazing stir frys, to now where we get on each others tits quite a lot, but if anything happened we'd be straight for each other. I dont care how we have fought, she knows that that  i love her. and we've got plugs!! plug buddies, yeaaaaaa boy, cept hers glows in the dark, its sick. love for you homie xoxoxox

GABBY DICKINSON:
Even though she probally wont read it, i still love you, i walk to school and from school with this girl, and she always cheers me up for the day. i can behave like an absolute twat around her and shes not fussed at all. btw i only love you for your wonderful taste in disney films ;) i joke! i joke! i love you really xxxxxxxx

FREDIE OTTER-SHARP:
Apparently ive known fredie since, i was like 7, we met at the village swimming pool, and i, embarrasingly, introduced myself. Fate brought us together, hahah. You may be fooled by the blonde hair and fantastic phisique, but i know the real fredie, she caring and honest, and has an amazing house for sleepovers ;) and shes the best for advice, EVER! honestly shes good. trust. Loveyou, love you, loveyou xxxxxxxx



All these love confessionals, are not at all in a lesbian way, these are my girls and they mean the world to me.

P.S Next blog is to be entirely devoted to the best nursery bud, francesca marsden- whos last blog was amazing.
Pp.s I promise the next next blog will be about more important things, like hair or clothes ;)

bye :)

Hahahahahahahaha!

Im having fun again, i think! Im appreciating things again :) had a rough day today though, as i was soooooooooooo tired, i could have killed someone -__- i think things are turning up again, im looking at things on the bright side again.

Certain things have made me laugh out loud recently, an enemy who i had COMPLETLY forgotten about, still has beef and decides to post all over facebook about my 'ginger' hair, i mean yes, i am a bit ginger, but it really doesnt bother me, dont get me wrong i think shes pathetic and everything, i just cant do with beef, when its not needed.

Another thing ive realised is how actually jealous and pathetic can people be, why are some people introduced just to be arguementative, demanding and controlling. There is absolutly no neeed! Some people just need to grow up and behaive like an actual human being rather than being a spoilt petty animal.

Sorry for the bitching session, but was needed :)
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